Liberia

I moved to Liberia to work for here the next 6 months
I was warned against doing it.

But I insisted I would. Anyways it has turned out to be more welcoming than I thought it would be. It has been a very smooth journey from Miami to Monrovia. A big culture shock by the way. People here are very friendly, very pleasant but at the same time angry with their country on what it did to them. Though for right now, it looks all a bed of roses, we know there is danger lurking right around the corner. People here are frustrated. Their frustration is building up, fact being us. They havent seen sophistication in a while. They have come out of a civil war recently and here we are working trying to build their economy. But what we fail to realise is the fact that, these people when they see us and the sophistication, will get enraged at their naiveness as a result of the war. They could outburst anytime. But that being said, Liberia is still a wonderful country with wonderful people. I like the place for now.
Ciao

Cool and assumptions

What is being cool???
When do u refer to a person as being cool??
When should a person actually be referred to as "cool"????
I am a branded fool myself along with numerous others that I know. I would buy a piece of clothing with out a tag though I know its as good as a piece of clothing with a branded tag. I previously thought wearing branded clothes, sporty shoes made a person cool. It could make a person trendy but not necessarily cool .What I think makes a person cool is when he or she can laugh even when the situation is tough, instead of sulking within oneself. But then laughing at a situation just to prove to other people that you are cool, is cheating yourself in the long run, because eventually will come a point when you have a tough situation and you have nobody to look up to or share. If at that point you can come up smiling like you always did, I will then agree that that person is genuinely cool. I thought to myself I was a very cool person myself, being able to laugh at any situation. But like I said before, I found out pretty soon I wasn't as cool as I thought I was. I was cheating myself and probably others too. I say others, because, they come up with this assumption that you were a cool person, while in fact you weren't. With all this said, what is that I wanted to put forward???. Never assume anything about a person. Even if you did, do not let that assumption affect your action or behavior towards that person. I have understood that even a person that you have known for a very long time may not be the actual person you thought you knew. I started thinking about people and personalities. my decisions, their reactions. I never did that before. My natural instincts might eventually catch up with me. I might again start behaving the way I used to previously, not caring what others thought or cared. I wish I can get back to that normal self ASAP.

My life

Alright
I know i am not alone when it comes to having the feeling of being told what to do with your life.
But after a recent conversation with my mother, I found out, my attitude towards life was wrong. Self pity and depression are something that should never enters ones life. Everybody has their own life and their own problems. Some just speak their mind out and some dont. I am the former. My life has been an open book for all that know me. Did we ever sit down to think why we were being told what to do. Its important that we do that before we jump into any kind of conclusions and regrets. I did that after jumping into conclusions and regrets. Better late than never. This world is a stone-cold place. I always felt because I grew up in the creche, I was neglected. But come to think of it, if today I am in this position, it was because of all the pains and efforts and sacrifices my parents made. I was under a very wrong impression all these years. I told my friends how my parents never trusted me, though I never did anything wrong. But little did I realise, those promises taken were out of fear and not out of not trusting me. Small and honest conversations can be life altering and can be used to better ones life. Do it with people whom you love. That said, I am not tellign you I am a changed person, I still have my lapses. I have been rude to people and still am. I quit talking to a few people and still am not and I may never. A very strong statement!!!!
I have let down a lot of people and may never be good enough no matter what I did.
I have to learn that LIFE is just not about ME.